My daughter is 17 months old so 17 months ago the hurricane of motherhood entered my life. And before that, the hurricane of pregnancy and preparing for labor consumed my existence.
Don’t get me wrong, I love motherhood. I also was surprised by my enjoyment of pregnancy and giving birth. The difficult part is that kids want and need your attention practically all of the time. Needless to say my music has suffered. I actaully went a few months without working on or writing a song. I mean I didn’t even scribble down ideas for lyrics.
It is one thing to put any sort of career on hold while you raise young toddlers and not have the outside world understand or appreciate what you do. Because if you don’t have a job you don’t have an answer to the ‘what do you do’ question everyone asks. I know they just have a hard time categorizing you as you are what you do in this world but still it is rough when some people joke that you are ‘retired’ if you choose to be a stay at home parent.
It is another thing to put you on hold. If you stop doing even the things that make you you then who are you? Regardless of what some member of my family think or try not to acknowldege, I am a musician. Luckily my husband supports me and the universe supports me. When I stear away from music things just don’t go as smoothly. It is as if the universe is whispering to me to get back on track. Sometimes I wish it would just yell so I can hear it clearly.
So I was pretty bummed about not creating songs. I kept experimenting with my toddler’s schedule to see when I got get the biggest chunks of time clear to work on my songs. Nothing I did seemed to matter. She is who she is and will nap and sleep when she wants. Thus I returned to following her ques. (see attachment parenting)
Then I wondered if I set up some short term goals would that help me get moving. I also wondered if these goals would just add more stress to my life. I decided to set some and try them out. I don’t know how long of a period of time would be appropriate to see wether or not they were helping or hurting but I think I will try for 6 months. The goals are as follows;
- Write, record, and upload at least ONE song per month starting this month August 2011 (upload to http://music.tarraguna.com and http://soundcloud.com/tarraguna)
- Practice sessions for Piano, Guitar, and Bass at a minimum THREE times a week for each instrument
- THREE posts a week on this blog (tarraguna.com/blog)
- THREE posts a week for birthgeek.com
- Podcast ONCE a week for birthgeek.com/podcast
- keep up with my other websites
- This one should go at the top …..Raise my babies.
Right, so hopefully this works and a year from now I will have a nice body of work that artistically, creatively, and musically represents what happend during the year.